Mirror Mirror
Within 6 months of this blog, the purpose of it has changed 3 times. Ana. Fitspo. Ana again. I just don't know who I am. I keep trying to find myself, but every road leads to food and scales. Ana is always holding my hand and pulling me down her roads. She is always there for me. Friends and boyfriends have always come and gone, but she has always stood right beside me.
So to all of my followers: I am sorry for the changes. I know I have been pretty confusing.
And to all of my new followers: This IS an Ana blog. I don't wish that people become like me or have an eating disorder - I simply support those who do. I realize how hard it is to overcome.
So that's that... Welcome to my blog. I'm hoping this is who I truly am.
I recently did a get healthy thing, and it turned into 2 weeks of binging. Needless to say, I’m back to where I was again.
It’s really frustrating. I’m either starving or binging. I don’t even know how to eat healthy anymore. Partly because I don’t want to eat healthy. Hell, I don’t want to eat at all. I hate food. And food obviously hates me.
I just need some support here in losing my weight again. I need to get back down. I need to lose at least 15 pounds. I hate where I’m at right now :(
Help?
One more mile.
One more situp.
One more pushup.
One more anything except going home without feeling exhausted.
Weigh yourself.
Look at yourself in the mirror.
Run.
Do crunches.
Drink water.
Anything but eat.
(Source: putilova, via fatt-cheerleaders-suck)
Others can talk openly about wanting to lose weight or going on a diet. When I bring it up, people stare at me, look away, awkward silence.
